Well, it did.

But with the last revelation, I feel lighter, relieved, like I'm recovering from a major, painful, operation, still weak and fumbling. It's like I forgot how to be happy.

Unless changes are made, I'll never be able to be fully happy again. Unfortunately these changes seem implausible.

I can't keep lingering here, I have to change, move, do anything that makes me busy and stops me from dwelling. I need to care less.

Right now, there's a bubble of happiness inside me that keeps swelling.
I hope it doesn't pop too soon.