Mindbox

Sometimes it feels like I have so much in my head that goes unspoken - so many crammed thoughts and memories. So this blog is called Mindbox - a tiny box of my mind, an output of thought and feeling.
For all you Harry Potter readers, you could consider it a virtual Pensieve.
I'll be posting random thoughts, feelings, and maybe some literature, with the possible addition of linked music or photos.

So, this is how my future blogs will look like.

Reflections of the day - I rather reflected today on how many people suffer tragic losses, heartbreaks, illnesses, and still manage to be happy. Is it just a facade, a facade of happiness, a forced state of mind in order for them to pull through? Or is it a real, self-induced happiness which they carry on feeling even when they're alone, away from others' eyes? If it is, the secret of happiness, I think, is different for all of us, but possible for every one of us.

Overall Feeling - I am still wounded, still healing. I still suffer bouts of unhappiness, of doubt, of despair and self-loathing, relentless flashbacks and regret. I still let my uncontrollable jealousy and anger cloud my reason. But I still feel that I'm healing, and becoming not the person I was before the first breakdown, but a better one. And I don't think it's a forced or induced state of mind. I'm glad I have Mr. Marble to help me through at least.
Before I was happy, funny, exuberant and optimistic, and that is the true me. With the coming of emotion-shattering events I became the opposite. With the healing process the real me is starting to crack through the barriers and shine through again. And when it's all over, I'll be happy, funny, exuberant, optimistic, AND stronger.

Media of the day - Alice in Wonderland! Not a bad movie (for a Disney production that is), but honestly I expected better. But I'll cut some slack - I'll bet Disney didn't allow Tim Burton to go the extra length of creepy he usually does - a pity, really. However I can see why Helena Bonham Carter and Johnny Depp are his favourite actors - They're OUTSTANDING actors. And always seem to thrive on roles of somewhat mentally challenged characters. (Which they seem to do quite often).


Song of the day - It's an odd but intriguing instrumental off the Dexter soundtrack.